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Clomid round 2….

So I got myself in that much of a bad mood I’ve deleted myself of all clomid groups I was in and anything I was following to do with it has also been deleted. I’ve decided not to compare myself to others and not obsess over everything little thing.

I’m just going to take my tablets and get on with my day to day life! (Well I’m saying this now but can guarantee it doesn’t happen haha)

After giving my head a shake and sorting myself out I am ready for us to smash round 2 🙏🏼

Today cd 3 I will be starting 100’g of clomid cd 3-7

After talking with our doctors about our tests and scan results they have suggested we up the dose and change the days so here we go again.

I will be doing the same as last month where I take the tablets at night before bed then I can sleep through any side effects that may occur! I will also be temping and carrying on taking my vitamins.

Must say the only thing I’m dreading is the pains in my ovaries & the bloating!! Last month my tummy became quite big which thankfully has gone down again now but with the dose upped I have a feeling it may come back again 🙈

Is there anybody else currently starting a round of clomid? Please drop me a message would love to connect and share our experiences.

• good luck to all you lovelies •

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The period party has begun…

So here she is… 3 days late & with a vengeance!!

kind of had an idea that she would show today as my temperature this morning had dropped very low.

I’m not going to lie…. I’m in the most awful mood ever. Not with anyone in particular or anything I just feel so low… after my negative hpt yesterday I sat and balled my eyes out & after just realising now af is here Ive done the same again!!

I feel terrible on James because one minute I’m happy & the next I’ve got the weight of the world on my shoulders. I truly couldn’t do it without the support I receive from him, I put him through hell & he still sat there smiling 😘

Today will be mostly spent chilling in my Disney pjs hugging my hot water bottle

Both of my ovaries are in absolute agony!! According to the clinic clomid can make some women suffer with worse period pains…. of course I had to be one of them 🙄

Been a woman can be so hard at times… yet been a man can be worse! Im pretty sure I wouldn’t want to be on the receiving end of my sh**ty moods 🙈

Hope everybody else is having a lovely weekend 😊

• please send chocolate •

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My James ❤️

They say you know when you meet the person you are meant to spend the rest of your life with… & I have never understood what that meant until the day I first set eyes on James.

It was the beginning of the year February time and I had decided I needed to shed some pounds before the summer, I came across a boot camp class at our local squash club so decided what did I have to loose!

When arriving for my first class there was quite a good group of women attending so I felt at ease… until the trainer walked round the corner and my tummy.. my god it started turning, spinning filling with butterflies doing everything it had never done before in my life!!!

And there he was… the man that I had been waiting for. The person that god had put on this earth for me to find. Rumour has it everyone has somebody that is there match and I had just found mine through my own eyes!

I became so nervous, scared, shy! This wasn’t like me at all, I have always worked with members of the public all my life and nothing bothered me till now. Anyway I struggled on through the class the whole time I couldn’t take my eyes off him. He was just perfect 😍

I carried on attending the classes twice a week without saying anything to anybody. I didn’t know what to think, all I had on my mind was James.

Then one night I received a message from his business page asking how I was feeling and getting on at the classes?! Pretty much a follow up message to all clients! I replied in a jokingly way hoping for a response and we exchanged a few messages. We somehow got on to talking about dancing classes?! Don’t ask me how!!

Then a message popped up on my phone from random number… I opened it and my heart truly skipped a beat! It was him, James! From his personal number asking about these dancing lessons 🤣 I can’t dance, I’m terrible and stuff like that! But I replied in jest & soon realised he was having me on too 😅

And that’s where it all began… we would stay up all night messaging back & forth about everything and anything! Asking how my day had gone etc just generally taking an interest in me and my life. Which meant a lot to me.

I finally plucked up the courage to ask him round to my house to watch a film together and chat and he agreed. Only to realise that he had felt the same way. He said as soon as he set eyes on e he knew I was the one… and we have been inseparable ever since!

I found my Prince Charming & I am never letting him go. He is the most amazing, caring and loving man that anybody could ever wish for & he was put on this earth for me 😊 I am one very lucky lady to have such an inspirational person by my side.

When you find that person you will know straight away. I’m so glad that I found my James and we can now spend the rest of our lives together as best friend and life long partners.

He is my absolute world.

I love you ❤️

• always trust in god •

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Af 1 day late….

Good morning guys, hope anybody who has the bad snow #beastfromtheeast is safe & well. We are still stuck at home 3rd day running now.

So we are 1 day late…. did a pregnancy test first thing this morning and it was negative!!

I’m not at all surprised, this is normal for us so shouldn’t get my hopes up!!

But I have been feeling every symptom of early pregnancy?!

So my boobs are still tender but like I’ve said I’m used to that, they do feel different though like more fuller!

Also…. pains in my right ovary for the past 3-4 days, we popped to Tesco on Wednesday to grab some essentials and I literally dropped with pain. I ended up leaning inside a fridge crying my eyes out. How embarrassing for James & Reece bless them!!

The sickness still comes and goes in waves, I can’t eat a full meal. I feel so bad james made a lovely curry last night which is one of my favourites and I didn’t even eat it… sorry babe 😘

I’m tired, more tired than usual.

I swear clomid plays with your body so badly. The things us women have to go through haha.

On a better note I can wait for af to show now and we can start round 2…. yeyyyyy!

After a recent doctors visit we decided together that we are going to try different cycle days this time. Cd 3 – 7 the doctor said that you produce less eggs on these days but they are more mature so should help us 🤞🏽🤞🏽

I will keep you updated when she arrives and we can do the journey all over again 😊

• Thank you for your continues support •

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Jumping to conclusions!!

After a few comments I’ve received over the past week I would just like to clear a few things up with all you lovely followers 😊

YES is the answer to your question I am under the supervision of my doctor and gynaecologist and had had all the care I need throughout my first cycle of clomid as I was prescribed it from them.

We did our research of the medicine online and talking to medical professionals as I’m very weary of taking tablets that are quite strong on your body.

The reason i havnt disclosed any of my medical appointments on my blog as I feel that is quite personal to us….

also my whole point of doing this blog was to share my symptoms and how my cycles worked while using clomid, and for couples ttc can talk and chat to each other for support.

Thank you for all your concern, I find it quite disheartening when people jump to conclusions. We are in the same boat as many other couples and thought sharing our experiences with others would help!

Anyway I’m not going to let a few comments ruin our future 🙋🏽‍♀️

Thank you to you all for your support

• Take the good with the bad •

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All I want is to stay in bed!!

Hello… hope everyone is having a lovely weekend.

I have been kind of quiet on here over the past couple of days as I feel very ill 😷

Today I am currently cd 22 – 9dpo.

My symptoms seem to be getting worse and worse. My boobs are still extremely sore which I can kind of handle by making myself comfortable.

For the past 2 days I’ve been having this weird feeling near my belly button which seems to have disappeared now but the pains in my left ovary are back… it’s comes and goes and noticed when I’m reaching up are work to get a box of the top shelves I can feel it!

But… the worst symptom is the sickness!! I have only been sick once it was around teatime on Thursday night. But this feeling of sickness is driving me insane, it comes and goes all day everyday. I’m fine one minute than the next it feels like I need to be sick, I have to keep swallowing because my throat feels awful.

The last thing is how cold I feel. As soon as I get in from work all I want to do is get into bed sleep. When James comes to pick me up from work he even brings my hot water bottle because he knows I will be freezing.

Unsure if I’m coming down with a bug or if this is side effects of clomid?!

Also a bad back… Af is due in 5 days so hoping she will relieve some symptoms when she comes.

I’d love it if you ladies got in touch and told me your symptoms while taking clomid. Its very interesting to share stories and help and support each other 😊

I’m not moaning… honest

• currently sat in bed feeling sorry for myself •

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A week till af due, irregular periods!!


Cd 20… according to my fertility app af should arrive in a week.

This may not happen in my case..if it’s late I won’t get excited as my periods are so irregular.

I’ve only been tracking my periods for the last year since we started trying to conceive and boy they sure know how to get my hopes up dont they!!

I will put some of the dates and length underneath so you get some idea of how crazy they can be….

feb – March 28days

April – may 38days

May – June 29days

August – September 41days

September – October 34days

October – November 38days

So there you go it’s pretty much like that for the whole year… here, there and everywhere. Fingers crossed clomid will regulate my periods and give us the chance of our little miracle.

We are also 8dpo today and I don’t feel too bad… still overly bloated (last night was worse than ever) twinges keep jumping back and forth from both ovaries.

Also this morning I woke up with very sore boobs… which is normal for me a week before af is due!! So I’m sure this time next week she will arrive.

I’m trying to be positive about it and keep my hopes up that at least clomid has worked and I ovulated which is a good start, and I mean we were never going to be the lucky ones that caught first time!

For the first time in my life I even prayed to god last night before I went to sleep 🙏🏼

So here’s to keeping the smile on our faces and enjoying life.

• everything happens at the right time •

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Keep yourself busy!!

I know your probably thinking yeah right… there’s nothing else on my mind apart from is this month going to be our month?

And you spend all your spare time reading posts on all social media, blogs, app chat rooms, I’m terrible for it! I’m currently on my day off today and I’ve spent all morning googling the two week wait 🙈

So ladies we need something to fill our spare time up with right…

Apart from the housework, shopping all the usual day to day jobs. How about a hobby?!

I know your laughing to yourself because I even giggled as I wrote it… but don’t brush it off yet. I have never had a ‘hobby’ as such, and it doesn’t have to be a club or anything like that just basically something you enjoy doing to keep yourself busy 😊

I came across mine when we had just moved into the new apartment…

I wanted some nice prints for our walls in the house, something that had some meaning and what better way than to do it myself… so I got out the card and pens and started… only thing was I couldn’t stop, haha!

It became so therapeutic.

The geometric drawings fitted in so well with our new decor.

So I’ve placed the love heart above our bed and Reece’s name and the panda are in his room! Got to say I was pretty shocked how well they had turned out…..

And the whole time I was doing it I never once thought about us getting pregnant, so I’ve come across something I enjoy that keeps my mind at ease.

Hope you all find a hobby that keeps you from going baby crazy.

I’d love to hear what you do in your spare time.

• remember make some time for yourself •

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It’s becoming a little weird

So instead of looking at clomid blogs and what’s best to do to conceive and all the other stories that make this process so much harder me and James have been thinking on a more positive note….

we’ve been thinking of baby names and looking at nursery pictures (which again James sends me ideas while I’m at work) see this is why I love this guy!!

Just to give us some hope and make it a bit more light hearted.

We have also been looking at people who conceive multiple births from using clomid. Which really excites me. You may all think I’m mad but the thought of having 2 little scrumptious babies melts my heart ( don’t get me wrong I’d be happy with one healthy baby)

So before I was born my dad and his previous partner (before my mum) had twin boys. Now I’ve heard all this it misses a generation etc but James read an article about it been a load of rubbish. So who knows??

On another note was at the dentist yesterday with Reece and randomly his dentist turned to me and said I think your going to have twins!!!! I mean what In the world!

Nobody knows that we are even trying for a baby never mind on clomid etc… I was in utter shock and rang James straight away.

It’s weird!!!

So chilling in bed last night flicking through Facebook talking to James about my day and one of them stupid quizzes comes up… ‘find out when you will fall pregnant’ …. well why not give it a go….

when this comes up…

I mean come on somebody is having my life right now!!! It’s either a massive coincidence or we better start preparing a massive lifestyle change.

• not thinking into too much… but praying at the same time •

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The dreaded TWW!!

Wow never realised how frustrating and hard this two week wait would become.

For the previous year I have always tracked my cycle using the app on my phone and just prayed and waited that af didn’t show up!!

Now on our first round of clomid it has come apparent to us how difficult the TWW actually is… It is even playing on James’s mind. He keeps sending me all this information he’s googling while at work ❤️

I’m currently 5dpo and feel shattered! Not forgetting how bloated I am!!

This is the current state of affairs from yesterday while trying to fit in my jeans!! This really worries me about our 2nd round of clomid next month when the dose is upped to 100mg… will I double in size? Haha

So here we are… cd 18. For the past couple of days I have had some funny twinges in my right hand side (ovary) nothing painful just weird. Then today it has started on my left hand side?

I have also noticed that my back hurts… but it’s only on a morning and a night time I really notice it!

Other than that I feel ok… no headaches or sickness. Which I’m pretty happy about 😊

It’s very difficult having the hpt sat in the box and resisting from taking one, thing is we are so used to BFN that I’m not even going to bothering wasting our time.

• keep praying every night •